So maybe I am bound by fate
A problematic scarring induced by hate
It never seems to all pan out
Is that what all this teaching is needed to scout

You seemed to have a bad effect
Your rules and contradictions I would neglect
Though not my fault, you made me feel
Like my own education wasn't truly real

Then you came right in, tearing out my soul
How could all this loss, be your only goal
I'm left standing here, desperate in the cold
Since you took your life, mine has not been whole

So there I stood, a scolded child
The reasons never questioned, my pain's been filed
Inside this place that makes me feel
I learned life is unfair and that is very real

While you try to overcome the lesson
Making the most of those questions
That just keeps me guessing
I'm looking longer, harder, further
Than I ever have

Solitude breaking me down
You always seemed glad to put me down
And stick me in that little pit
Personal growth as a child that mattered not a bit

Then I became the person that you hated most
Disrepecting the father, son and holy ghost
A small example of what the things
You've done to me have changed in my little life

And changed the things I'll never be
I'll never be